I Went Through A Genuine Panic I Couldn’t Keep Together

i felt as though i went through hell, i died
every piece of me destroyed
i squirmed and screamed, i couldn’t submit
i admit i thought i was dead
i wanted to die, i thought i had
wtf is going on, wtf, will i ever be the same
who am i what’s this game
never again will i be the same
why is my instinct to reach for comfort
and not be destroyed by my own making
what have i done, what has happened to me
i had betrayed everyone including myself
i experienced an ultimate low, i saw myself
for the nothing i was, i wanted to end it so
bad everything in me was screaming
get me out i am so uncomfortable
i can’t breathe and i don’t know who i am

© Brandyn Aubrey 2015