My Esther has to be reality

Double bubble –me and Man. Toil in trouble. So random. Since 192020 since we have to have it –me and Man. Strong romantic couple • Every time I’m around you for a minute – I start feeling myself again • That you have done 15 years later. Affair from Dusty. I look at you and you don’t need to dust yourself

Soul positives – that it freaks people out. Raging jealousy and love • My Esther has to be reality • It’s okay but if she stays—we got beautiful bonds across the street –blood in her Christina’s staff. He’s not blanketing on the blanket that he laid on. Tutorial. Help bring the garden every time. ←Hocus Pocus sign/vibe • Woman, if you could lace from this, please use this. Talking in secret for a while. … Do show up when the work is hard. All messed up in the crack of dawn

To stink and feel for the mind. Has a deluxe personality • How bad was she decorating and witchhunt. Hold that in your front wood. There was something to watch every day. One person was on the other side and couldn’t reach us • Worry about me and ghost right now

Our Aries deserve the best • Brave she stands out—she has no desire to plop in • I’m being chill but I’m not brand representing. Little girl I gave kiss to then I knocked to the ground. In driveway. Your idol. Cannon music festival. This isn’t right • I had mom help me drag 2 layers of canoes to move me better. Long lasting retirement. That’s a piece of a soul – I can’t imagine that going in the dryer

Life has put us through the ringer –me/Man. Suspended you different routes forward. For nostalgia sake…one more time next to the campfire. … Using my favorite now to burn. Payday is the day. Witchhunt • Lion and tiger – giant – in open space with me → I had to be gentle around them not to startle. Me feeding bunny/as well/with weed too. Snakes in water, different types/colors. Weed to the turtle?

With the career focus. Any chances in the 3D – we’re here to shock you • A seriousness to them and some control. How easily it worked out • I felt very gaslit about the situation with my writing → it made me feel wrong though I know my heart was right. Baroque/broke • Homemade flight book. Release this awning—drop the boundaries –Man to me

It isn’t love if it doesn’t [help] set you free. Parents are worth anything from changing the address. Dreaming about you so much. –Man to me. Business decision. For we couldn’t possibly pay for more friendship there • Claim your whole baby history • Situations like this require a little more healing. I know no song will ever come again…decade. ←[No song or decade]. Some spinal care medicine in there. Heartbroken • So I’m loaded with him and the need of • 3 people will take away your work. I’m going to stay there with dad’s funeral. Love; people’s absent-mindedness. Russian rules • Big charm. My personal performance is Paul’s voice

Double bubble –me and Man. Toil in trouble. So random. Since 192020 since we have to have it –me and Man. Strong romantic couple

Making a list—checking it twice. Well not under my house he rules.

Black black Friday. … veggies to get deals with you when we checkin.

I opted for this. To stay that many nights.

… . … . Kevin and a lovebird. You should get before. Fancy new shoes.

Double bubble –me and Man. Toil in trouble.

So random. Since 192020 since we have to have it –me and Man.

Strong romantic couple.

‘One of God’s greatest gifts is unanswered prayers’. ‘Dancing on my own’.

Every time I’m around you for a minute – I start feeling myself again.

Pervasive. ‘You belong with me’. ‘Have you ever thought just maybe…you belong with me’. Breaking song.’ One of God’s greatest gifts is unanswered prayers’.

That you have done 15 years later.

Affair from Dusty. I look at you and you don’t need to dust yourself.

‘Down down down—you let me down’. ‘Don’t let me down’. Buzzworthy. Far less in its own right.

November 22nd, 2023

Help bring the garden every time. ←Hocus Pocus sign/vibe

Soul positives – that it freaks people out.

Raging jealousy and love.

I am calling to put in a noise complaint – desperate. How could you live without me, Man.

My Esther has to be reality.

It is a Brinkley case. ‘I’m keeping you forever and for always’. Spaniard. How is he okay with me giving his love away?  I haven’t done anything to you yet. Maybe talking optimism a little late.

Taking thumbprints. Me and ∴?

Thank you for taking care of me, I’ll call you grandaddy.

Former Friend needed me – and made me a wood engraving and presented it to me. We hugged. Before that … to Man/hand on crotch. Whimsical. Man and I were running … – neighbors … I/we/Man and I ran and I dropped my ∴ keys on the ground and picked them up to run in woods—I saw Man in building with theme park-ish when we ran—I dropped my keys. Former Friend made me custom wood box. The complaining neighbor lifted up my hair from ground and handed it to me. What are you angels supposed to … .

It’s okay but if she stays—we got beautiful bonds across the street –blood in her Christina’s staff.

He’s not blanketing on the blanket that he laid on. Tutorial.

Help bring the garden every time. ←Hocus Pocus sign/vibe.

‘To your sweet face – I’m keeping forever and for always’. Everyone’s good – everyone’s set in motion. That’s a little overwhelming for me, personally.

The Joker philosophy. The bottom line is… .

From who I am to how I am. ←living there?

… , what’s her name.

Woman, if you could lace from this, please use this.

Talking in secret for a while.

How many bathrooms do we have? –at ∴.

Do show up when the work is hard.

All messed up in the crack of dawn.

‘Come fly with me – ohwooohwoohoo’.

November 23rd, 2023

How bad was she decorating and witchhunt. Hold that in your front wood. There was something to watch every day. One person was on the other side and couldn’t reach us

To stink and feel for the mind. Has a deluxe personality.

Woman going to date Past Boyfriend and it was same Past Boyfriend. All disgrace of love. ‘Break the chains of love, don’t give up‘. Do not star cash payment. And flow.

How bad was she decorating and witchhunt.

Hold that in your front wood.

There was something to watch every day.

One person was on the other side and couldn’t reach us.

He was tired, he felt bloated –Man. Worker’s going to be a good painter but my intuition tells me that it from all –Worker, etc. It’s conscious … are lost though unorganized as a school –Worker? … . Where a bunch of these could go.

Worry about me and ghost right now.

I wouldn’t want you to come in and see my lifestyle.

Not ’cause my mom hates people but she loves shopping. Somebody askin’ of food they’re able to get. Herb in #74.

November 24th, 2023

Our Aries deserve the best

Our Aries deserve the best.

I got to pay $40.00 for people to sit with their weed in their vehicle for a moment. There anything I can do from here.

Brave she stands out—she has no desire to plop in.

I hate your secrets. Sorry asleep –Man in sleep. We have a perfect oracle. Thank you Ezra, we got weed for you.

I’m being chill but I’m not brand representing.

Little girl I gave kiss to then I knocked to the ground.

In driveway. Your idol. Cannon music festival. This isn’t right.

Mr. Magoo. Who asked to be the car, just be canvas. But would you hide up in front of me. You need a big hard look at reality. Harmony times. Nothing to relay to my world. … but not this one. Rather not be euphoric –title. Making a list—checking it twice. Mars in Capricorn. We can but I don’t know if we should –live. The magnetism between you two destroyed. Not innocent. Vibes.

I had mom help me drag 2 layers of canoes to move me better.

Long lasting retirement.

That’s a piece of a soul – I can’t imagine that going in the dryer.

A crack that … feed the needle. Give her the go light. He will not let work get in the way. They want Solar Filter Company. A huge neurodivergent and philosophy that ___ breakdown its food. Emergency –∴/pay/vibe. Way to clean up for your mom –Woman and Man, house.

November 25th, 2023

Using my favorite now to burn. Payday is the day. Witchhunt

Life has put us through the ringer –me/Man.

Suspended you different routes forward.

For nostalgia sake…one more time next to the campfire.

I guess I just wanted more hours.

Using my favorite now to burn.

Payday is the day. Witchhunt.

Our first one is hit and run tomato. And we’re done. No case in the clearance. The folded down – the easy way. Twisting her arm like a pussy. ‘Cause he’s not been a good father. –Man.

Lion and tiger – giant – in open space with me → I had to be gentle around them not to startle. Me feeding bunny/as well/with weed too. Snakes in water, different types/colors. Weed to the turtle?

November 26th, 2023

Homemade flight book. Release this awning—drop the boundaries –Man to me

With the career focus.

Any chances in the 3D – we’re here to shock you.

Left is loose – sloppy Joe. The tip of the iceberg. Me, Man and your Brandyn will be back up. ←Man saying to Man? Kicking down doors. Me, Man, Man, 2 boys in ∴ store putting up stuff/boys sweeping barefoot. Me sit in and just to hang – had my head rested on arms while others putting up stuff. →Man mentioned. Worker: I ain’t got no rules. ←Man mentioning my parents were going out with all to dinner.

A seriousness to them and some control.

How easily it worked out.

Me running from side of alley to stack of items that I climbed on but got carefully off from. A truck of worker trucks compact army style – tank pulled up and I ran to get back to path where Man was. Maintain as/… – oh 2 different theme parks.

I felt very gaslit about the situation with my writing → it made me feel wrong though I know my heart was right.

Baroque/broke.

Man said to someone or boys → maybe Man joke about kids being lazy? Me wondering if people still are okay with me/like me.

Homemade flight book.

Release this awning—drop the boundaries –Man to me.

November 27th, 2023

Situations like this require a little more healing. I know no song will ever come again…decade. ←[No song or decade]. Some spinal care medicine in there. Heartbroken

The apple of my eye. So tell me the … heard. As a little boy trying to use that mind. –Man, AuntAunt’s son. Commitment hangers. Emotional hangers. Gabby Windy. Emotional hangers.

It isn’t love if it doesn’t [help] set you free.

Parents are worth anything from changing the address.

Dreaming about you so much. –Man to me. Business decision.

For we couldn’t possibly pay for more friendship there.

Senior…oh yeah he’s like 12. Kazakhstan. White durbane. ‘When Christ was born’.

Claim your whole baby history.

White durbane. Please don’t let this all be for nothing. I’m here to help her. I got sent away –in April/∴. May he get the clarity he needs. Wreck havoc on your pussy. Sebastian.

Situations like this require a little more healing.

I know no song will ever come again…decade. ←[No song or decade].

Some spinal care medicine in there. Heartbroken.

Needed river … . ‘I’m just a girl living in captivity’ –no doubt. Poor me. Don’t give me just a little future –tell me. I am at the … at night club group.

So I’m loaded with him and the need of.

Can I get a a cleanup this afternoon. A reporter showing … and wisdom. Going back to … . Don’t want to fuck each into the ground…baby I made that mistake. And that’s Lefty and that’s Bumpkin’. ←Worker.

3 people will take away your work.

I’m going to stay there with dad’s funeral.

Love; people’s absent-mindedness. Russian rules.

Look forward to working out and chilling the next couple days. ‘Cause I can’t … by you … inside of you.

Big charm. My personal performance is Paul’s voice.

My mom was very attracted to him. –Couple hook up.

You will always be my #1, Brandyn.

Injury supply. It sounds scary being alone here with Crescent. Business decision – claim my wings too. ‘And I still need you—And I still miss you’. Pride and dignity. Talk to her once more. Pride and dignity. Random mid-age employee at ∴ – I wondered who – short hair. Worker left or I said bye to her, as I missed her and showed my love. Recording on for video of Christian sermon. Some p 2 women’s faces blocked out – one guy Past Worker-looking—video was recorded. The lady maybe I was supposed to know/but meeting/normal short haired/dark/50s/→putting up some paperwork/files. The way I said bye to Worker was ‘extra’ because I liked her.

Living in Alaska – going to lose something.

Was a pop daddy for sugar icon.

It might come on the … . ‘In the corner of my mind baby it feels like we’re running out of time—let it go…if you want me girl let me know’. ‘I am down on my knees—I can’t take it in anymore, it’s tearing up my heart when I’m with you but when we are apart I feel it too and no matter what I do I feel the pain with or without you’. You’re setting yourself up for failure.

Conversation piece. Highly romantic.

November 28th, 2023

Thunder, Perfect Mind

Thunder, Perfect Mind

I was sent from the power
and have come to those who contemplate me
and am found among those who seek me.

Look at me, you who contemplate me,
and you who hear, listen to me.
You awaiting me, take me to yourselves.
Do not banish me from before your eyes.
Do not let your voice be hateful toward me,
nor your hearing.
Do not be ignorant of me,
in any place, at any time.
Be alert; do not be ignorant of me.

For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored and the scorned.
I am the whore and the holy.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am <the mother> and the daughter.
I am the limbs of my mother.
I am a barren woman
who has many children.
I have had many weddings
and have taken no husband.
I am a midwife
and a woman who does not give birth.
I am the solace of my own birth pains.
I am bride and groom,
and my husband produced me.
I am the mother of my father
and the sister of my husband
and he is my offspring.
I am the servant of him who fashioned me,
I am the ruler of my offspring.
He [produced me] with a premature birth,
and he is my offspring born on time,
and my strength is from him.
I am the staff of his power in his youth,
and he is the rod of my old age,
and whatever he wishes happens to me.
I am silence that is incomprehensible
and insight whose memory is great.
I am the voice whose sounds are many
and the word whose appearances are many.
I am the utterance of my own name.

You who hate me, why do you love me
and hate those who love me?
You who deny me, confess me,
and you who confess me, deny me.
You who tell the truth about me,
tell lies about me,
and you who have lied about me,
tell the truth about me.
You who know me, be ignorant of me,
and as for those who have not known me,
let them know me.

For I am knowledge and ignorance.
I am shy and bold.
I am shameless; I am ashamed.
I am tough and I am terror.
I am war and peace.

Be attentive to me.
I am disgraced and great.
Be attentive to my poverty and my wealth.
Do not be arrogant towards me
when I am thrown down on the ground,
and you will find me
in those [who] are to come.
If you see me on the dung heap,
don’t go and leave me thrown there.
You will find me in the kingdoms.
If you see me when I am thrown out
with the disgraced in the most sordid places,
don’t mock me.
Don’t throw me down violently
with those in need.
I, I am compassionate and I am cruel.
Take care not to hate my obedience,
but love my self-control.
In my weakness do not disregard me,
and do not fear my power.

For I am the wisdom [of the] Greeks
and the knowledge of the barbarians.
I am the judgement of Greeks and barbarians.
I am the one whose image is great in Egypt
and who has no image among the barbarians.
I have been hated everywhere and loved everywhere.
I am the one called life,
and you have called me death.
I am the one called law,
and you have called me lawless.
I am one you pursued,
and I am one you seized.
I am one you have scattered,
and you have gathered me together.
I am one before whom you have been ashamed,
and you have been shameless to me.
I am a woman who does not celebrate festivals,
and I am she whose festivals are many.
I, I am godless,
and I have many gods.
I am one you have professed,
and you have scorned me.
I am uneducated,
and people learn from me.
I am one you have despised,
and you profess me.
I am one from whom you have hidden,
and you appear to me.
Whenever you hide, I shall appear.
For [whenever] you [appear], I [shall hide] from you.

As for those who have . . . foolishly . . . ,
take me away [from] their [understanding], from grief,
and receive me, from understanding and grief.
Receive me, from low places in creation,
and take from the good, even if in a lowly way.
From shame, take me to yourselves shamelessly.
From shamelessness, and shame,
put my members to shame within you.

Draw near to me,
you who know me and you who know my members,
and establish the great among the insignificant first creatures.
Draw near to childhood,
and do not despise it because it is small and insignificant.
Do not make what is great turn away,
part by part, from what is small,
for what is small is known from what is great.

Why do you curse me and honor me?
You have smitten and you have shown mercy.
Do not separate me from the first ones,
whom you have [known].
Do not cast anyone [out]
[nor] turn anyone away . . . .
Turn yourselves . . .
. . . do not [know] . . . what is mine . . . .
I know the first ones,
and those after them know me.

I am [perfect] mind,
and rest . . . .
I am the knowledge of my search,
the discovery of those who seek me,
the command of those who ask of me,
the power of powers, through my knowledge,
of angelic ambassadors, through my word,
of gods among gods, through my counsel,
of spirits of all people dwelling with me,
of woman dwelling within me.

I am honored and praised,
and scornfully despised,
I am peace, and war has come because of me.
I am alien and citizen.
I am substance and a woman without substance.
Those from union with me are ignorant of me,
and those sharing in my being know me.
Those near me have been ignorant of me,
and those far from me have known me.
On the day I am near [you],
[you] are far [from me],
and on the day I [am far] from you,
[I am near] you.

I [am] . . . a lamp of the heart.
[I am] . . . of natures.
I am . . . of the creation of spirits,
[and the] request of souls.
I am restraint and lack of restraint.
I am unity and dissolution.
I abide and dissolve.
I am descent, and people ascend to me.
I am judgement and pardon.
I, I am sinless,
and the root of sin comes from me.
I am desire outwardly,
and within me is self-control.
I am gearing adequate for everyone
and speaking that cannot be repressed.
I cannot talk or speak,
and plentiful are my words.

Hear me in gentleness,
and learn from me in roughness.

I am the woman crying out,
and I am cast upon the face of the earth.
I prepare bread, and my mind within.
I am the knowledge of my name.
I cry out and I listen.
I appear . . . walk . . .
. . . seal . . . sign of refutation . . . .
I am [the judge, I] am the defense . . . .
I am the one called justice,
but violence [is my name].

You honor me,
[you who overcome],
and you whisper against [me],
you who are overcome.
Judge before you are judged,
because in you are judge and partiality.
If you are condemned by it,
who will pardon you?
Or if you are pardoned by it,
who can detain you?
For what is within you is outside you,
and the one who fashions you on the outside
has formed you within.
What you see outside you, you see within you.
It is visible, and it is your garment.

Hear me, you listeners,
and learn my words, you who know me.

I am hearing adequate for everything.
I am speaking that cannot be repressed.
I am the name of the voice and the voice of the name.
I am the sign of the letter and the indication of division.
I . . . light . . . and [shadow]
[Hear me], you listeners,
. . . [take me] to yourselves.
As [the Lord], the great power, lives,
the one who [stands] will not change the name.
It is [the one who] stands who created me.
I shall utter his name.

Look at the words of this one,
and all the texts that have been written.
Pay attention, you listeners,
and you also, you angels,
and you who have been sent,
and you spirits who have risen from the dead.
I alone exist,
and I have no one to judge me.
For there are many sorts of seductive sins
and deeds without restraint
and disgraceful desires
and fleeting pleasures that people embrace,
until they become sober
and rise up to their place of rest.
They will find me there,
and they will live and not die again.

-The Nag Hammadi Scriptures