Go see mommy’s girlfriend. How’s the job going – teeny accurtive. Because I have nothing compared to them. Because I started out with something different. Phone/pendulum/by Jeep outside when loose dogs—stray/loose dogs ran by me and then Woman went away. I was intending to jump on vehicle for safety. I thought I charged my phone and was inside. The dogs were dangerous/loose but ran by me. Not good at anything. Broke. Alberta.

Direct link with the divine and I must keep myself pure.

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Well what’s the point of doing anything in this world. All the aftershock party.

Nelson Mandela book – me say it to man – no one like me and I’ll just read this book alone.

I guess what you’re saying –Man. Me carefully peel of papercover off book to take hardcover with me and study. Papercover all came off, no tears but was sticky.

[Then said … ] Out with his pocket – Out of his existence. Me walk in —store kinda redneck behind counter and people signing invoices for guests – I placed the prophecy stone on the computer – I am not going to fight my way back in. When you’re just being stingy to me to me, unfair. Stone on computer monitor edge. 1 guest tried to be closer to closer too/hold her, but it was mine and place there for overall vibes.

I was looking for some peace and that was definitely worth it.

Struggling without you—I’m terrified too. Important launch without you.

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Manager – computing tapping her ass – she just has Jack Frost…[computing fucking herself]. I can’t beg anymore. ‘Owe you a goddamn thing’. ‘To a record of the wreckage of my life’.

I’m not going to fight for it at this point. I’ve been transparent.

[You just haven’t] Taken the time to get to know me and my writing.

‘I’m 1 sweet dream but I’m a hell of a nightmare’.

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With everything I’m picky – I don’t want to charge extra.

I was going through something serious, Man – and for anyone not to respect that…No Bueno.

You know how you make me feel betrayed. You make me feel betrayed and crazy.

Run out of gas with you –Man…me to him.

Dead on the inside. Of course it is not in God’s will.

… blaze. I was doing what I wanted to do. ‘Talk shit but I love it every time’. Kindness is weakness – take a lot of repeat business. We are doing a side step of November. Barnhill operation…”04–19”. Lock me and release me. Shaves a mohawk Sacramento. I’m just doing God’s work.

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I was quiet, had no response really. Just tactic it. Just feels really backwards to me. Just need a little office time [next to someone in an open office nook]. White truck girl who lived out of truck and worked at campground as family but forever – she vibed with me on situation and how to use tact. Man send a goofy texts to lighten up the divise – me no respond.

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No one ever feels me. I just had no response [even though I typed out everything at first].

I am connected to a water house. He saw me laying down depressed looking out water in lake. That’s when I said: things just feel really backwards.

Every ___ under the Sun they need you.

Man’s texts had some jealous memes in there, no no, you’re always off.

[What would you want me to be] Passive person – no I’m active bitch.

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Boss to me – that shit was a mystery. Respect is given.

Man [took] video of me – me in ghostly gown with others.

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You don’t have to ghost everything…go to sleep.

Oh my god you have so much power.

Competition – I love…Motivation – I love motivated people. –… . For certain she makes mistakes.

It’s all about the psychology. It’s all about the people—Arabs being Arabs.

You doing good – so many videos in the dojo.